This weekend it's going to be just me H and the kids. He stayed over last night, the usual things, slept in his corner, I slept in mine. Standard procedure nowdays in my home. Whatever... My kids love having him here and Easter is a family time so I am not going to dwell on it more. My time will come. (LOL, sounded scary)
I need watching K, I'm a bit low! Cuaght a bug, look like sh*t and still NO GODDAMN MAN IN MY LIFE!! hahaah.. sounded scary also. I'm glad H is there and your kids are having a good easter, but I picked up on what you said that your son doesnt believe you are back together. I was a little surprised at that, but then I guess H is never there in the week so they still see little of him and it will make things easier if you part ways later on, easier for the kids. I'm sorry you are still not getting any either(!)... but..have a good weekend !
Funny, H gave his Mp3 to my son and backed up his playlists on my PC. I had not looked at it before and just now I did. Apart from all the Greek songs he had he had many non greek songs, all talking about love, missing someone, "a year of love", "why cant we be together" and many many other by artists I didnt even know he KNEW... (some of them I dont know either and I listen to non greek music more than he does). Most of them are so sappy and romantic I was astonished by the fact he had them on his mp3. Somehow, I dont think he had them there for me. Bets anyone?
Maybe he is still mourning the lost love (not me) and that's why he cant even try to come closer to me... K
We are having a bad weekend because I am in a rotten mood. I hate being with someone and feeling so alone.
Hope you feel better on Sunday....bad moods are not good for anybody.
Since I am a tad negative and I like to place the odd wager, well you know where my money would be going. It would explain his "reluctance" to move away from his corner of the bed.
I know how you can feel lonely with someone who is not "there".
Hey M.. you must be out now, dont you have a midnight ritual? I was thinking about H and his music... why dont you just ask him? Hey H.. I'm surprised you have this on your mp3.. show an interest in it, ask him how long he has liked that music, which is his favourite, etc? I still dont really understand why you dont talk to him.. its like you silently muse on things, but dont engage with him on a personal level. Maybe thats why he stays on his edge of the bed, because you are disconnected from each other, gaurding your secrets (and yes, he is largely responsible for that).
I went out to my favorite Greek restaurant tonight, Taverna Plaka, and I couldn't help but think of you. The music, the food, and the atmosphere is amazing there. We even danced through the entire restaurant with our waiters and at least a dozen of the other patrons. It was awesome!
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!
