I think I may be in an overly sensitive mood right now. I usually take the kids to his house after I get out of work for the weekend. Well today he texts me saying that his friend/room mate is going to be in my town picking up his dog and he can pick you the kids while he was here. He said it was to save me the trip and the gas. My first thought is that he just doesn't want to see me and this is the easiest way for him to keep me from coming over. Most of me doesn't believe that and just takes his reason as what it was. There's just that part of me that feels like everything he does is because he doesn't want to be around me.
I've also been thinking about something for a few days and really don't know what to do. My sister and her fiancee live in another state. Aside from my mother who lives here, she is my only other family. They have offered to let me and the kids live with them while I go back to school. I have wanted to leave this state for years, but my H has always refused. I feel like if I don't do something now before things progress I will be stuck here for at least 10 more years until the kids get older. The only thing that would be keeping me here right now is my H. We moved here because it's his home state and he wanted to raise the kids in his hometown. I literally gave up everything to move here for him and now that he's left I have nothing in this state. It's his family and his friends. Everything here is his.
The thing is, I don't want to do anything that would jeopardize our chances of reconciliation. I don't know how he would react if I were to actually leave. My best guess is that he would be angry that I took the kids. Well that's a duh statement. I don't know what's going on in his head right now so I have no way of gauging what his reaction would be. Should I even be considering his reaction? Is this an instance where I need to do what's right for me and the kids and hope for the best?
