I dont have any other addictive issues..if i understand what you are talking about. Since I have tried to stop, I realize that it had become more of an "addiction" b/c I do feel like I am having withdrawls of some sort. I am having problems accepting this as affairs... I dont know why... I think b/c i did not set out to have an "affair"..and it is so hard to believe that I would..and I know what my intentions were and they were not to replace him...I know.. i was wrong..but i feel like that is such a small part of what I am dealing w/ and he can only focus on that..i told him that was more of a sypmtom of the bigger problem and he just cant get past it..and i dont know how to help.. b/c i am trying to pick myself back up and get functional.
As far as making any decisions, im not..I want to go to school and start working to see if that will help me personally and that is a long way off.. meanwhile.. we need to acknowledge we are having problems,, which we are.. I just dont know where to start. I do well to get up everday and go through the motions of living.. Thanks for the input.
