"The issue of the Protection Order/Safety Order came up and he has said that once I did that it damaged things forever between us. He claims that it is a profound statement of lack of care and love towards him."
YOU did NOTHING of the sort. He is just saying that because you decided to fight against his abuse and he learned that he couldn't control you.
"He says that he feels a huge waste over the last five years of our marriage but when he looks at the future he sees no waste in terms of the decision that he has made."
Your H is trying to belittle you. Do not take his venom as gospel. You are the strong one for fighting for you M while he is in denial.
If I may inject an opinion. I think your H is an egotistical, self-centered and immature bully. That's exactly what he's doing by trying to shatter your self-esteem. Well you don't take that from him. Live your life they way you want to. He wants to move back, then you do everything in your power to keep him out. He is the abuser and you don't let an abuser into your home to further abuse you.
He is disrespecting you and your D. Do you really want your D to learn that that's how her future H should treat her? I would even go so far as to tell you to move back home to get away from him. The only way to fight against a bully is just that...fight.
You are a special woman and don't you ever forget that.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
