W has been much more verbose in her text-message replies as I've been cutting back. Generally of a sense of telling me D1's developments, etc. such as the fact she is drinking juice/milk/etc. from a cup rather than a bottle now. Of course I've been aware of this because I began getting information from the daycare workers instead of W, which keeps me much more informed.
Still no word if W's attorney has filed any sort of response. It has been two weeks as of today, and our hearing is Tuesday.
I met with my IC yesterday, which was therapeutic still. We delved into past relationships and my own unhealthy patterns of attachment as a co-dependent. Basically long after the expiration date of most of my relationships, I was still going above and beyond in people pleasing behaviors. After D'ing my xW for example, I offered to let her stay in the guest bedroom, give her rides to college, and basically take care of her post-D until she could get on her feet.
I've been in a relationship in some fashion or another since 1999. The longest I've been without something, be it a relationship or a fling, is the current period since my S. I figure taking plenty of time to myself, to evaluate my perspective, etc. will be a healthy thing. Most of the drama in my life has come from relationships, so I think doing without for a while will be a positive step.
D1 was doing great this morning. The daycare worker who watches her most days has been very helpful in informing me of things affecting her.
Anyway... legally I'm lined up. I'm hoping in a worst-case scenario that I get the Psychological Evaluation ordered. I've got so much evidence on her prior mental history that I just don't see how the judge can turn a blind eye.
As long as they know I'm not doing it to be vindictive, I'm concerned about D1 and don't want her to grow up writing a journal like this.
"You can't reason someone out of a position they didn't reason themselves into."
