..but look at his pattern. I had all this contact before, he called me every night, saw me 3 times a week, spent the weekend with me and took me out with those same friends and then 2 weeks later.. stopped all contact and started seeing helen. And I heard things before, remember? Last February, he told BMF he thought he had made a mistake in leaving me and started contacting me again.. well 14 months later, we are still apart. He talked abuot me all the time last summer to G... he started dating her in August. He told me in November he missed me and just needed some time. That was 5 months ago. He said at Christmas he didnt feel for her what he felt for me.. he still didnt see me for 4 months. He told BMF W on Monday he loved me, when she said well why not give her a 2nd chance? he said, I dont know I dont know.
I'm not crazy, I guess I dont 'trust' him anymore to act on his feelings. He says one thing, but does another.
As everyone says to me, he got closer to you before, then dumped you a 2nd time for her.. he's capable of doing that. He has toyed with me for 18 months..I'm not on a rollercoaster, I'm on a merry go round !!!
I guess I am building up resentments the longer he dithers and also as you said today on your thread K, sometimes, they just do too much damage? But thanks K and Julia, for the encouragement!
But yes, I know.. patience.. etc.. he's processing.. yes, keep waiting.. what choice do I have? I still love him.
