"I don't wanna spend my life jaded, waiting...

[theotherhalf]

best not to look too far into the future because non of us know what that will hold.

This is one hard lesson I have learned through all this. I've always lived my life on hopes and dreams. Always knew what I wanted. That all changed 2 years ago. Still I hung on. Through a very hard process I truly learned that all we really have is today. I have no idea where this road is taking me. No matter where it goes. I am will be okay.

Just ask yourself one question IF it all comes to nothing with B will you still be happy with D your H ?

I have asked myself this many many times. The answer is plainly there. Yes, I have no doubts.

Maybe happy is not the right word, will you still think deep in your heart that you did the only thing you could do at this stage in your marriage?

The other morning when the man I have loved so deeply. My best freind. Came to me and got down on his knees in front of me and cried. Asked me to take him back. When I looked into his eyes I hurt for him. I love him. But now in a different way. I knew then and there that I had only one choice. In my heart I knew that I had to proceed with the divorce.