"Kerry, we both couldn't cope with him adjusting here."
Timing has a lot to do with life. I have learned this alot. It could be a recurring theme here on DB. One of the best things I think you could do in a relationship is get the "timing" right. As we grow and learn.. I think we start to understand this. It takes practice to get it right.
"A couple of years ago he sent me a wonderful letter telling me I was and always will be the greatest love of his life, apologizing and asking for my forgiveness."
Again to me this kinda points to the fact.. the timing was off. It's easy to look back and see where you screwed up. It is really hard to look forward.. and get it right all of the time. I would suspect that he did not need to write that letter.. just because you already "knew". I suspect that you knew he did not mean to hurt you. I suspect that you knew there were times you left him "lacking".
"He says, in my emails and letters, he has watched me loosing my spirit and "shine" over the years and blames H for that."
Well.. that just says it all. He is wrong in the fact that it is your H fault. It is yours.. 100%. Kalni the thing that stands out about you.. is your "Sunshine". (Sorry Woog) It is what attracts people too you. I have long said all of this is a walk of you and who you want to be. To me.. this is how you win.
If you could act like you did 8-9ish months ago.. and understand that is the real you.. Wow.. is all I can say about that.
"What a very interesting and somewhat sad story of love lost."
Yet I don't see him listed in your signature anywhere. So out of your great story.. who is the "Lost Love"? Life shows us where we got the timing wrong.. simply to have a reference point.. of when we should get it right. Sometimes we have to wait on the best times in life.. even though we want them right now.
To me you have put way too much effort into "this" (Your time on DB) to give up now.
Enjoy your "day" (Life).
And always...
Relax Eat Think Act normal React.. Smartly. Do something different. Emulate. Do Work.
