A New Decade

[MsMelancoly]

And so the saga continues .......

Yesterday, my H emailed me asking if he could borrow some money for some bounced check fees. He said he would understand if I didn't want to or couldn't & that he would still come over to work on my car. I agreed & he came over tonight to pick it up & have dinner. Yep, many may think it was the wrong thing & I'm a sucker. Maybe so .... but it was my choice & I don't feel bad. I guess, I don't feel bad because our friendship, our dating, our M was always give & take on both sides. Ofcourse I still love him & care about his well being. Strange that he was wearing a necklace I had bought for him a few years ago. He was also wearing his wedding ring, but on his middle finger. BTW, our wedding rings were not typical either, so it really doesn't look like one. Yet, still it is a constant reminder of us. I have not put either of my rings back on. We chatted a bit, I think we were both tired & not as lively as the last time. He talked about his friend, always problems there - could make a good novel, I told him. H said he needed to start distancing himself from his friend. I asked him about visiting his family, again drama & issues there. So it seems, I am the only stable, sane person in his life. I said I have my little island here (meaning my home) of peace & tranquility. I told him a bit about my going out with M1 last weekend. So just chit chat. When it was time for him to leave, I gave him some home cooked food for tomorrow. We again hugged & kissed several times. He said he would be over on Saturday to work on my car. Oh, he also said that this summer he will be my slave for working on house stuff if I want. Hhhhmmmm, I can think of many things for a slave to do. Does this mean he is planning or wishing to spend time with me this summer????