Letting the shoreline go

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Thank you Jackie and Optimist.

Jackie - I think you make things crystal clear! From where I sit, things seem all muddled and confusing. The "rules" were more clear to me right after the bomb. This part seems less black and white, and it's harder for me to figure out what's right to do and what's not.

H is bringing up the baby issue every day. I did a bad thing several days ago - I snooped and read something that really has me worried. (I know, I know - everyone line up with the 2x4's. I am ashamed of myself already.)I'm having fears of can I really trust him, etc. Probably because I snooped.

We'll probably have to have the baby talk as soon as he gets home, so I'm praying about it and writing things down, so I'll hopefully do a good job. I did tell him today that I do want another baby, and that we can talk about it some more when he gets home. I would stall if I could - maybe that will still work. I just don't want to bring up anything that might be tough to deal with - I'm a chicken.

Good for you on getting peppermint foot lotion - you'll love it.

Thank you Optimist. I want to be dating and enjoying each other. I think that H will continue to bring it up until we have the talk. Hopefully it will go well. I'm so scared of screwing things up.

I also said something today that may have hurt his feelings. What is wrong with me???? I let him know it wasn't directed at him, and he seemed to understand.

Sorry for the negative post. Hope you are all well. I'm thinking of you and keeping you in my prayers.