I want to thank you so much for taking the time and effort to calm me down and educate me on what I am doing wrong. I can't thank you enough for pointing things out that I need to do better. I am working on GAL. I did get my hair done partially for me. I went and joined a gym with the kids. It was partially for me and partially for them. I honestly don't know of anything that I want to do that will make me happy. I've been so sad for so long feeling as if I don't fit into the world due to my size. I have felt like I embarrassed my family by being so big and hid myself from the world. I have Cushing's Disease and it took me a long time to get a diagnosis and treatment and the recovery is actually worse than the disease at times. I believed when I had my brain surgery last year in April that I would get better and be able to lose weight and be the energetic person I am in my mind. I am doing more and pushing myself to get out more. It's a difficult process, but I will beat this. I will become a better me regardless of whether it brings him back to me. I'm tired of being tired.
Thank you again!
"It is excruciating pain. It is the pain of separation, the pain of loss, the pain of dreams and expectations unrealized. It is the loss and death of a mirage."
