Last night I got my head straight about all this. I realized that I am thinking about the past and the future to much and not about today. I need to remember that I can only change what I am doing and do what I can today and let the future be the future. I also need to stop crying about what has happened and how much it hurts. I can't change that either. I have had a fatalistic attitude for the last week or longer even. Wishing it could work out but not really believing it could. I went back and read some of the LRT from DR and also saw this quote in my co-workers cube.
"The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude to me is more important than facts.... We cannot change our past...we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the string we have, and that is our attitude. I am convinced that life is 10 percent what happens to me and 90 percent how I react to it. And so it is with you... we are in charge of our attitudes."
I copied it and put copies of it everywhere. In my cube, in my car, in the bathroom, in the kitchen. I need to remember that if I don't have a good attitude and work the step to DR I will guarantee failure instead of having a chance (even if it is a small one).
I hope this PMA lasts. =)
Me-38 W-44 D8 & D6 together '95, Wed '97, Bomb 11/18/08 Still in same house