I wish I had more time to post but it is good to be working again. So much to learn at the new job, there is just not much free time.
Update:
Tuesday night we were still at odds over the Saturday night episode. No hugging, no kissing and hardly speaking to each other. I was upset and she could tell. All day long at work it felt so good to be working instead of looking for work. I was thinking we should both be pleased now that I am back to work.
W finally said something that night at bedtime. I laid it all out about how I feel we should be happy now and we are not. We talked about the chore sex thing that happened Saturday. She complained that she isn't a touch-and-feel type of person and that is what I am wanting. She said her family is not that way and she has never been that way.
My answer to this I gave was that I am not her family... I am her husband, I need to be touched in a loving way to feel love. This is important to the survival of our marriage.
She got so mad at the conversation that she stormed out of the bedroom. I went to sleep half in tears thinking I'd probably moving out next weekend.
The next morning she hugged me in a patronizing way and I said "Please make it real. I want for us to love each other."
That evening when I got home she gave me a kiss and hug that were real. I like that she seems to have the right idea now about what it is that I am wanting. I hate that I have to get to the point of almost walking each time that it languishes to the point where I can't take it anymore.
D will be out of town this weekend so I am hoping to make a nice evening out for W and me.
I like that she seems to have the right idea now about what it is that I am wanting. I hate that I have to get to the point of almost walking each time that it languishes to the point where I can't take it anymore.
