You have every single right to "feel" the way you do.

The trick is to somehow find a way to verbalize things without making him defensive and without you having to keep it bottled up.

Take this advice from the hypocrite.....I do the same thing!!!

Just like we tell our kids....use your words!

I think I mentioned in an earlier post to you, you guys seem to lack in the area of communication. Not to be funny, but there really are classes and books on this stuff.

Maybe it could be something you both could do together one day.

Lower that barbed wire fence you have built around your heart a little.....I think it's time.

You know... the chances of him hurting you again are 50/50.
The chances of rekindling your Marriage are also 50/50.

(((((hugs)))))

There can be no testimony without a test.
I am praying to go through this test and come out the other end with a new and better marriage then before.