Well i was doing pretty good i had 3 days of NC with WAW and i was going to be having my 1st phone consultation on thursday so on tues. 4/14 i textd her and asked if she would like to participate and that just started the whirlwind of comments i never thought i would hear from her. She doesnt love me it is over Ive had 13yrs to change and it is too late, that there will be no second chances and that im only going to counseling because im panicking trying to repair what is totally irreversable to her. Man that really hurt pretty bad i simply responded that i would take that as a no, and to have a good day. Yesterday i spoke to her mother she and i have a pretty close relationship and she told me that there whole family has no idea what is going on with her right now that she is crying to them that she is losing her best friend and lover and she cant stop it. Today i had a consultation with sheryl and she told me to basically GAL, and to go dark, have had NC since 4/14 and it is killing me but have to try the advice i am givin. She also told me when she was on her tyraid that she wanted her name off all bills and that she wanted basically to cut all ties with me untill she was over this and then we can be friends. But untill then she has boundries and her boundries are to not talk to me because she doesnt love me anymore. So as of right now for the first time in the past 13 yrs of my 28 i am single and it hurts pretty bad. Just the feeling that she doesnt love me is the killer that for some strange reason she could go from discussing children with me and her mother a month ago to now be saying that she doesnt love me anymore is just shredding my heart to pieces.
