Renee, Your self-esteem has taken a beating and that's why you feel like no one is going to want you. A lot of people will step back from someone who is going through a divorce or has recently been divorced because they do not know what to say or how to act around us. I went through this a long time ago. You do feel like a third wheel many times, but you know what, you will get through it and will see the light of day again. It takes a while. Divorce is just like a death, except you do not have the closure you have in many cases of people dying.
BTW, you cannot depend on others to make you happy. Happiness comes from within and you have to learn to love yourself and be the best company you can be to yourself. Learn to do things by yourself and do not rely on others to keep you company. It's not difficult to go to a movie or out to eat by yourself. You just have to take those first few steps.
Be kind to yourself, but do not expect things to change over night. In many instances, you have to makes the changes before anything else in your life will change.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
