Thanks for the inspiring words antlers. I appreciate them immensely. I'm trying so hard. I'm still new at all of this and am still finding it extremely confusing. I've read the book and to be honest I really feel as if I need someone to walk me through this. I want to change me. I want to a better me. I am just finding it difficult to figure out what I need to do. I am not getting the whole 180 thing. I don't know for sure what acting as if is. Am I supposed to just leave him be and not talk to him period? Please help me.
"It is excruciating pain. It is the pain of separation, the pain of loss, the pain of dreams and expectations unrealized. It is the loss and death of a mirage."
