You and Holdingon are right. I just need to be patient.
Thank you for letting me know about the Just for Fun forum! I have not looked there yet.
Update: Overall a good weekend. We stayed busy with the children.
Positives: 1. I forgot my lunch today and H brought it to work for me. 2. More hugs and kisses 3. We went with H's parents to see some of their relatives yesterday. H thanked me for going and said I did a great job (long car ride with two small children).
One of the most difficult things I'm dealing with at this point is our oldest child (almost three). If anyone has some experience with this, I'd appreciate input. She almost constantly wants her father to get her out of the car, put her to sleep, etc. I can understand this, as I know she has missed him terribly. I'm glad they have that kind of R, and very thankful H is back and is an involved father. She also will say things like, "Go away, mommy. Leave me alone." And seems to direct most of her anger/frustration at me. Most times, I'm able to let it go without saying anything, but it's getting old. I've cried about it only once that my H knows about. I'm still acting as if I'm fine all the time, so I try to keep this from my H too. When is it OK for me to let some more of my emotions show? So far I've really shown only frustration and sadness. And anger maybe once. Just feeling a little like I'm pretending.
Mockers2
"Somehow we survive, and tenderness frustrated does not wither." Dennis Brutus, South African poet
"That which does not kill us makes us stronger."
Friedrich Nietzsche
Most times, I'm able to let it go without saying anything, but it's getting old. I've cried about it only once that my H knows about. I'm still acting as if I'm fine all the time, so I try to keep this from my H too. When is it OK for me to let some more of my emotions show? So far I've really shown only frustration and sadness. And anger maybe once. Just feeling a little like I'm pretending. 
