Hi girls, Bbj, I worked half day today and will not go back till Monday in 10 days... YEAH!!!
H's sister called me. She probably was surprised by the advice I gave to her H which was to calm down and think of what he wants and dont jump into conlusions because she was friendly and warm which is weird since we havent talked for 18 months more that a hello. She asked me to spend Easter all together. I had told H I dont want that and he probably told her to call me. I am proud to say that I told her I need to think about it and didnt accept. It's a messed up situation (although they said they talked today and are trying to figure it out) and I am fed up with misery and complicated relationships.
Also, what message would that give my kids. I am not going unless H and I are clear why we do it and what it means :nothing. I am not sending out wrong messages to anybody.
We had a convo with H today about his sister. His way of dealing with it continues to impress me negatively. He is detached and "doesnt care what they do, they are adults, just take car eof the kids". I did tell him his attitude sounds a lot like what he said he wants to change :indifferent, not showing how he really cares for what is happening and accommodating his sister's indescretions. I wonder, if our DiL acted this way and our son was hurt would he be so calm? Probably.
Anyway, he is the Marlboro land as we say in Greek, meaning in lala land. He is doing his best. And maybe thinking that sooner or later I will just accept it. Somebody is up for a big surprise.
Talked to my son today. I was glad/sad to hear that he still thinks me and H are separated and in his head there is no revived hope for a reconciliation. Kids are clearer:dad is not living with us, nothing has changed.
We'll have 25 celcious for Easter. Lamb chops and kebab are in order. Red eggs, tsourekia, easter cookies etc etc. I am loosing weight and feeling better in general. Sunshine is still nowhere to be seen but I am not loosing faith. I am healthy, my debt is smaller than Ali's, my kids are good kids and healthy, my dad is hanging on, I have a brother that loves me and shows it, I have friends that care for me and I have a Valentino purse I love... LOL!! K
but I am not loosing faith.
