Well one thing I have to change is find a better way of communicating on all subjects. We fight alot over just about anything and its usually cause he doesnt want to talk about it(his words exactly) or cause I'm trying to talk to him about something and not getting much response. so I become upset with him. I need to change my co-dependent issues with him. I dont try to strike out much on my own cause I always rely on him to direct me. I also need to be happy with myself if I can be happy with another person. My self esteem is week and fragile and I need to work on that. Dont get me wrong, i know that I love him and that we can be good together but I know that I need to work on these things or im just going to continue down a spiraling path. I have even scheduled an appointment to work with a behavior specialist to start addressing these issues. So I know im headed in the right direction. I just keep asking myself what took me so long. LOL
