Hi PM, I thought I would not sleep last night but slept like a baby. Had my prayer session with God and I will keep trying to turn it over to him.

I found when I tried to control the situation I was helpless, now that I have found some strength to let go and let God, somethings are happening.

These past few weeks H has been trying to be nice. I am always suspicious because I think maybe with D coming that he is hoping I will be "fair" with him. (Like he was fair with me??? No he had an Af-fair). But I need to just let it be and continue to work on myself.

I am just coming to a place where I have been trying to do a personal inventory and recognize the changes I have to make for myself. I want to restore my M but I need to like myself enough to let myself be happy again.

Will keep everyone posted.

Me 53
H 50
D16, D29
M 22 years
bomb 7/08 INH - alien pod replaces H
8/08 - OW (direct report), I work there also
bomb II - H moves 10/1
expose ow 10/22
D to be final 9-09