Year 2...and still breathing!

[kat727]

I found being in limbo very difficult but my ex wouldn't stop his affair so there really wasn't much to do. I didn't want a divorce, I wanted to fight for our family and our marriage. Today he constantly throws that in my face. Well if having morals and loving your family is a disgrace, I wear it proudly.

I don't think about him so much except for the dangerous road he is treading on with our kids. He forces her in their face and is trying to force them all to be a big happy family. I fear he will lose them at this rate. Physically they may have to go with him but emotionally they are checking out. It is sad to watch.

My biggest goal is to help the kids get through this the best I can. I am certainly prone to having bad days but the good ones have been catching up nicely. What on earth did I think about before this bomb blew up? Because now it is filled with nagging doubt, rushing everyone to where they need to be by myself and trying to figure out how to make my life what I want.

This is the hard part because you truly have to let go of what was and focus on what is and what you want it to become.

kat