Finding me......again

[ACJ]

BND I'm just catching up on other people's threads. I always seem to catch them when they are in danger of locking!

I know exactly how you feel about your job and having to get it right to maintain some sort of financial stability. I've been there etc.

In about October last year I was beginning to think that the right job at the right pay etc would never come my way. I felt pretty hopeless as like you I was doing more than was expected of me in the job I was in at the time. They never said thank you. I stayed with them for nearly 8 years through thick and thin and yet loyalty is not something the NHS rewards (unfortunately). So by the time I left I felt no pangs of guilt, they didn't deserve it. It was time to do things for me (and mine).

The job I am in now is much further away from home. This is still a concern for me given all the D13 is going through at the moment but it was a trade off between staying where I was and not being able to provide adequately for my family and working longer hours (mainly due to travelling time). I also knew that once I got the higher grading it would eventually be easier to get a similar job nearer to home. I now enjoy my job again whereas before I was beginning to resent it. I've got enough battles in my personal life I couldn't handle them at work too. I also feel I am getting recognised for my contribution and not just in monetary terms. This is really important to me. I don't remember of by heart which LL this is but I know it's in there somewhere!

My situation is totally different to yours. You and your H reconciled and I don't see that ever happening in my sitch anymore. Your financial situation is the way it is b/c of the behaviours of your H whilst in MLC (and I can only applaud your level of forgiveness on this one) whilst in my situation everytime I find a way to solve financial problems my H raises his game in terms of nastiness and wanting more from me and so I never seem able to climb out of the pit he has dug for me.

We are however very similar. We would fight to the very end for our children (as costly as they are ) and neither of us is prepared to sit back and let life happen to us. You are much better at that than I as I still have very major pity parties but some of us are slow learners

So just keep on being BND as that is all that is needed for you to continue your success.

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