I got a text from H today that he was going to get the rest of his stuff from the house. Came home tonight and it's so strange... he found a place to stay, so it makes since he'd take his clothes, etc. but that doesn't really prepare you to come home and find the entire clothes rod empty except hangers, books and glasses, papers missing. It's like the Grinch visited while I was at work.
I can't help feeling like we just grew further apart. I know detaching is the only hope I have to get him back, but this is incredibly HARD! I want to beg and plead with him to love me again, to give us another chance and to not leave me.
But I can't control any of that, and I'm not going to let him see how much I'm hurting. I continue to pray for strength, for patience, and for God to work in H's life. I sent a quick text tonight to see if he was still taking a TV, and he wrote back he'd get it later. Said have a good night, and he said "u too". I don't understand how he can go from being my partner and best friend to such a cold man seemingly overnight.
I miss him so much.
The kids aren't home tonight which is good. I'll be stronger tomorrow. I don't even know what to say now since he's still not talking to them. Before I told them he went to the cabin to think, and he didn't think he could come home right now. I guess that's still the sitch except he's staying with a friend instead of the cabin, but having his clothes, etc. moved out makes it seem so much more real.
I guess there's a ? for the board - any suggestions on what to say to teenagers when their stepdad won't communicate. Just that we are still having some problems and it has nothing to do with them...?
