The forgiveness did not come easily, it is a daily excercise, kinda like mental gymnastics.
I struggled for so long in this area because I just could not wrap my little brain around the idea of actually letting all of the MLC crap go and forgiving him.
He created such a mess and there was so much destruction, and slowly but surely we are rebuilding, but it has been awfully hard.
I am going to start a new thread in a couple of weeks, as it will be two whole years since my Husband has been home.
What a freaking long journey it has been.
From my FIL's death in 2002 to now.
I understand why you don't trust your Husband anymore, but I also see through your words on your thread.
You love this Man, you have a history with this Man, you have nothing to lose.
Don't be afraid, just let down your guard a little and let him see the "real" you.
Believe it or not you are in total control of the situation. The worst has already happened, You are Divorced. There is no othr place to go but up.
((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))
There can be no testimony without a test. I am praying to go through this test and come out the other end with a new and better marriage then before.
