I think all of the contact this weekend was too much for me. I loved it, but at the same time when it's done and there's no reason to see him it's such a let down. It also underlines how much is missing with him gone.
I'm kind of confused as to where to go from here. I mean, I'm doing some things that seem to be getting results but then what?
Do I just stay dim until he makes more of a move? Do I continue doing my 180 of no contact even after the conversation has ended but there was something else I wanted to say? Is it really supposed to be the hard and confusing? I feel like I'm second guessing everything that I do and it makes less sense after I do that.
