First off, I am glad you applied for the new job. Maybe they'll call, maybe not- maybe you'll want it, maybe you won't. The point is, you opened up a bunch of new options, and that is important.
Back to your earlier post...
Thank you for being human!!! I sometimes wonder if I can truly forgive and forget. Sometimes it seems to come so easily to people here, and I feel as if there is something wrong with me. I do understand that you did so like a pro, but thank you for putting your feelings out there like you did. You didn't sound whiny at all. You have valid concerns and worries. Yes, you will find a way to overcome them- it just seems that you have that ability. Thanks for not sugarcoating this, though. I really appreciate your honesty.