It's Complicated! Part 5

[glamgirl]

You are right ANew I don't understand it. It feels like my h just doesn't give a flying rats a** about anything, not even his kids. I tried reading some books, online articles and I still don't understand it. He makes ME not want to care, and that is not how I want to be, but emotionally I can only take so much.

I filed my taxes. Yeah! That was a big step for me on my own. H has filed them the past 9 years. I used Turbo Tax and filed my own. It's not the end of the world like I thought. I just felt like one more thing that we no longer do together. I can't worry about what h is going to do with his. I guess he can file an extension, if he is not up for doing them.

I have been detoxing my body the past few days and darn it the post office was handing out lattes and cookies and I gave in, now I feel sick to my stomach. Now I am kicking myself.

Thanks Anew for the post. Gives me another side, it's just so darn hard to understand when this happens. What do you do? Walk away? I have been loving and supportive and that doesn't seem to matter? I am at a loss as to what to do, other than just pull inward myself. I feel so disrespected and so SAD at the same time.

I do believe Anew that if you want to get out from under the depression, you do need to make life changes. Like eating healthy, regular sleep schedule, and exercise to name a few. My h says he is going to do this, but then doesn't. It is so frustrating.