Newly Seperated - What To Do?

[Uncool Cat]

It's been 5 days since my last post. First I'd like to say that I'm sorry I haven't read too many other stories on this site. I have read some, especially those of you who have responded to me. I haven't commented much on others' posts. I guess it's because I don't feel as confident about this DB stuff yet.

Even though I feel like I am doing what the book and my coach say to do, things just keep feeling worse and worse. She is full steam ahead on the divorce. She went to the parenting class that my state says you have to take last night. My attorney hasn't even spoken to me about it yet.

Today she was trying to workout Summer and Holiday arrangements for the kids. She also asked me if I wanted the house. This is the house that she basically kicked me out of. Also, early in the separaion she was all about protecting it and keeping it. She is either realizing that she can't afford it, or it is a constant emotional reminder of me. [That's what my DB friend says.] I just signed a 6 month lease on a place close to her so that I could take the boys to school and spend more time with them. She says she will stay in the school district, but that's not the point. If she didn't want the house, she should have moved out - not me!!!

On top of all this I'm facing major problems at work. I would elaborate here, but it would bore you. Let's just say it's tons of stress. It would be OK if I weren't dealing with the divorce. The Bible says God won't give you more than you can handle [I'm paraphrasing.], but I feel like I'm about to lose it.

The irony is I haven't made any real DB mistakes or back-slides recently [at least that I know of]. I have been upbeat, positive, GALing; I don't call her; I don't ask about her. I've been dark for weeks.

I may sound like a little girl as I write this, but I don't care. I need a hug and for someone to tell me it's going to be allright.