"I don't wanna spend my life jaded, waiting...

[a new 2moro]

alot of posters have pointed out the same things....you have made a drastic change in your feelings towards your H, your M, the farm in a very short period of time.

less than 8 weeks ago you wanted all those above things. This all seems to coincide with B entering your life.Soooo... are you really any dif than your H...you are having an affair albeit an emotional one. You were so adamant your H shouldnt have an affair while M, that it wasnt right. Whats so different here?

Cant you you cool your jets with B to find out just who you really are and to not expose B to the wrath of your H......He will find out who B is. Is that fair to B?

I'm not cabable of being as crazy as him.

uhhmmmmm wanna re-think that one?

How will you feel is A) something happens to B or he gets dragged thru this very messy D B) when this messy D is over and B has decided this is not for him and you find yourself alone.

All thru your postings you have said over and over you are not meant to be alone. Im not 2 x 4 -ing TOH just bringing up what your old posts taught us about you. Im not saying you shouldnt D this unstable abusive drunk....just dont be the kettle calling the pot black or stick up to the morals you showed us you have. you appear to to be riding the wave of euphoria of an EA. We all hope not for you , for B, your girls and even your H