Mockers, I see a lot of me in your writings. You appear to be really strong, able to pull yourself up to any occasion, but there are doubts that linger about yourself and the relationship. I think we all have doubts, I think we all want someone to say to us, why do you feel like that, you are bright, beautiful, funny, etc. Who doesn't want reassurance from their spouse or boyfriend? Parents are supposed to give unconditional love, but to get it from another person is much more special. Now, I want to go on record that I think you are all of those things. For some reason on the BB we get drawn into different people's threads, some is just luck, the right timing, but there is an element of that person that attracts us to them.
Quote: One of the things I know I need to do is to be more confident in our R and in his love for me, but this is even harder after the A.
I think you need to be more confident that about you. You have that confidence, it just seems to have dipped a bit. Dig it out again. You are worthy of it all. H is lucky to be with you, he is lucky that you are the mother of his children. They are going through a bad period and are in pain and we are letting them slide for the being, because they are the ones that need the empathy, not us. But that doesn't mean we aren't worthy. It really means we are more worthy? So go do anything that makes you feel better about you. Kids aren't going to stroke our ego, not until they are parents and realize what goes into it, find someone or something (probably the latter, former could get you in trouble) that does.
I hope this makes sense. I have just rediscovered coffee as a diet aide and after years of drinking only decaffineated stuff, my mind is in la la land. Love the flylady site, thanks for that recommendation. Though I don't have my shoes on, my bed is made and sink is shiny!
