Holding onto Hope

[In Limbo]

Thank you guys. It's just so hard. And I feel like every time I slip back into old habits I not only dissapoint myself, but I also make his case for him. I think he's just looking for reasons to justify leaving.

Also, I'm curious if anyone has any advice on how to talk with H about feeling like he's not just separated from me but also abandoned his boys. In the three weeks he's been gone he's only talked with them on the phone once. He's coming home on weekends, but he's been spending more time with me (good) and not really doing much with them (bad). When he interacts with him he is gruff and barks orders. They both keep asking why he's so agry with them. I don't know what to say so I just keep telling them he's stressed over his new job. During the week they don't even ask where he is (we told them the first week that he was going out of town for his new job). They need their dad and I don't want them to end up casualties of this sitch as well. How do I talk with H about that without being judgmental and keeping positive?