First off thank you guys so much for caring enough to post to me.
I have been pitch black dark. I was dark for around 3 or 4 weeks with no contact with xh. No phone, so text or anything. It didnt seem to bother him at all. Maybe that wasnt long enough, I dont know. Xh is getting married to ow so he probably could care less if I ever contact him again. In fact, he has basically told me so. So Kimmie I have tried this, didnt work.
T2SP I was doing so good for almost a month, until recently. I left him a message on his phone and let him know how I felt about some things. He called me back and let me have it in return. Other than these couple calls and a couple texts here and there (by me, not him), I was on a roll. But I had a setback and regret it. I regret it for ME. T2SP I do believe, even though I went dark, that he thinks he can still come home, he knows I still care because he hurts me and I show it. He is so conceited that he will probably think this forever or until I remarry. I think he did wonder when I wasnt calling or anything, because my son mentioned to him that I wasnt asking questions about his dad and xh said "maybe she has a man". So yes I think it maybe made him wonder. He thinks I have been on dates but thats it. I guess I really messed up. To be honest guys, some days I dont care.
