Need Help handling affair thats still going on

[kjensen]

This morning I left before H arrived. Didn't go home for lunch. I had no contact with H since last evening. ( I know, I know a big whopping 15 hours). H called me at work today to check-in. He wondered where I was as he had been waiting for me to get home to have lunch with me...We had a friendly chat, I explained I had errands that I had to run and I asked H is he could see if the girls could spend some time with him this weekend-he agreed. He's hesitant since the last time he felt very rejected by them, but I think its important he keeps trying and I need a break from teenage moodiness!

H said he'd call me later to check-in...He seems to like the routine we're in. He did say he slept better last night. I wonder if that means he was with OW since the last time he 'slept better than he had in months' he had spent the night with her!I kept my mouth SHUT! :-) If he calls or texts me tonight I'll know he's not with OW...I know I shouldn't care but a little part of me does.

I'm a bit down today b/c I asked my doctor to order tests for STDs(just in case) b/c H slept with me after being with OW(without protection)...Its just is embarassing for me to ask for those tests, and I'm mad I was put at possible risk. I really want to ask H to use protection if this A continues but I can't bring OW up so ....

Will keep up dimness(I know I'm probably not very dim am I?)-not initiating contact. I do feel in my situation that responding to H's efforts with friendliness is important. I think if I totally ignored him it would backfire, at least right now. Might work later.