Episode IV: A New Hope (?)

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Not much to update.

Broke the silence after another night of the boys not calling me. Just sent her a quick text saying I was sorry I didn't get a chance to call to the boys, doing a lot of work. The intent was to just poke at the request I made to let them call for at least a few minutes a night, of which they say she always denies them access to the phone.

Surprisingly she did reply with just a casual "yeah, what are you doing?". Told her yard work mostly as when my cousin's H passed they went downhill in a hurry and we found some carpenter ants loitering in the shed area. No reply, but none the less, at least a casual interaction.

Spending a bit of time grappling with how we can co-exist on a "friend" basis as we'll have to for the remainder of our lives, even tho we'll be divorced from marriage, we WILL still be parents to our children. I'm just trying to come up with ways to extend that notion, but the kicker is, she still won't let go of the marital problems. Confusing. I'm at the juncture that she filed for divorce, she's been with OM now for 9 months (at least) and we should be done and over with. But no, at every opportunity when there's nothing left to talk about, she HAS to dive into it?

Don't get it, simply don't get it. I just know that someday down the line we will be that couple I see almost every night when I stop on my way home for a quick beer and bathroom break. I've referred to them several times in my threads as they had divorced years ago and now regret it as they chose new lives that just weren't the same. Well, she's made her choice. And I guess I've made mine. I answer to no-one (but my kids, but that's different) and I'm starting to like the single life.

I would just like to converse with her on a friends basis, I still get her medical claims and don't even care about the financial portion of it anymore, would just like to sit down for lunch or something and make sure she's ok, but I guess that will have to wait until after the D.