Stress, WAW and life in general II

[AJM]

JOURNAL UPDATE:
Last night wasn't too bad. I'm the one that's a mess. I'm mostly numb. Not completely, but mostly.

I got home first and was making dinner when WAS came home. She suggested some whine - I made a joke about that and she threw water in my face. Playful. Not too bad. Towards the end of dinner and talking with the kids, she asks me if I want to go to NY to see the Blue Man Group. I said sure. She said when? I said about 2 hours from now. She thought I was kidding I think.

She has also been riding me about the next time I go to the MC. I think she wants me to talk to her about her moving out. Been trying to wait until she finishes with finals, but may not be able to. I'm not sure I want to wait.

She also was telling me about her day. Made it a point to. She was telling me about her friend at school. The one that had an affair, her husband caught her at it, gave her an ultimatum, and they worked it out. She got pregnant not long after that and is due this summer. I said then that she would take some time off after the baby was born. Wife said "nah - won't happen" Last night she tells me the girl is going to take a year off. I smiled.
She also was talking about how she is getting along so well with one of her professors. The one that used to make her stomach hurt when she would go to class. I told her then that she needed to stand up to him. Once she did, he started becoming her best friend. I can be pretty good at reading people some times She didn't listen at the time, but that's how it goes.

Anyway, all in all not too bad. It's just me. I don't want to think about this right now. I am so bone tired, I can hardly see straight. And yet, I have a strong sense of commitment. I can't just stop or just walk away. I'm not done, but really really tired. And numb.

I'm going to take a break from the boards for a few days I think. I'll update later.

AJ