Why do I feel so dang guilty about my R with my ex Fiance'? I feel like I was a total monster with him. He tried to make me happy, but in the end, I just couldn't get there with him and I really don't know why. I think he did all the right things, but for some reason, I just didn't engage into the R like I would normally. Soomething wasn't right with it and I couldn't and still can't put my finger on it. I was a total depressed slug around him. I didn't want to clean the house or do normal things. I had no desire, no energy, I felt nothing and that is so unlike me. I really can't figure it out.
