Thanks so much for your response; its wonderful to know that there is support out there. I was released from hospital yesterday; have to go back or an examination and further tests Friday. H spent the day with OW and rand at 8pm; primarily to speak with D. I was so hurt but the question is, is he making this clear ie should I believe his thoughts and actions? He asked my mother how I was, when i got out from hospital etc. I couldnt talk with him. Trying to Go Dark but also just so very hurt. Am wanting to protect myself now. We have a lot of work to be done on our house and I am determined to do it by myself; he has always complained about me not having any interest in the house. I love my house, and I am going to make it everything that we had hoped and dreamed. It will be his loss. Having a day of hurt but also feeling a sense of regaining power. I have to be in LRT and i have to GO DARK; for myself and my daughter. As you rightly say; he is on an emotional rollercoaster; he is blaming me for everything and is finding so much in this new relationship to validate what was wrong with us. But that is so easy to do when you are in the throes of something new. He has lost his vision of what I have to offer. I have a lot to offer; I have a lot of love to give and, even though i have made mistakes and silly ones at that I am mature enough to own up t them and turn my life around for the betterment of me and the people around me who I love. I am proud of that quality. I guess it is up to him whether he is prepared to believe it or not.
