Amyc you are right, I would only feel good for the moment. Truth is the last time I talked to him I did not do good and this is why you are right and I am NOT ready to communicate with him on any level. I told him I was hurt and upset, not because she has him, but because he is spending all that money on her and his son and I are struggling so badly. I know son is eighteen and I know I am not his responsbility but it costs alot to raise a teenager. My son is looking for a job but no luck yet. I did however send him a text later and I didnt tell him I was sorry but I did tell him that if he were in my shoes he would feel the same way and I sometimes didnt blame him for running because I sometimes would like to run too but I dont and cant. I did tell him I wanted him to be happy. I did this because I realized what you are now trying to tell me. I know that being angry is NOT good for me or anybody else. I probably should have let it go, but I didnt want to end it like that and besides it was a text. I havent seen him in weeks and havent talked to him but maybe twice in weeks so it is getting better. He is sooo wrapped up in his young finace', he won't be contacting me anymore, so I probably will not be speaking to him again anytime in the near future.
