Thank you Trusting for your honest answer, it helps to know that as a mere wife that even the experts cannot fathom the MLC er mind.
I know I drove my x away by my behaviour,(after he told me about the A) I did all the no no's because I did not find this site till nearly 1 1/2 years into it.

It is a mute point whether had I employed to the best of my ability all the DB techniques I could have helped save my marriage.
Do you have a different approach to your work now because of your experience or are you able to keep wrk and home circumstances completely separate? sorry more questions.
I think you do an amazing job of coping with your life btw.
I think mine was one who never looked back, because it took every ounze of strength he had to leave.