.. I forgot to say, I got a text message at 9am this morning from the Pisceam, sadly, I didnt quite know how to answer, but I did, as neutral but caring as I could. It said: "Hello you, the urge to text was far too strong! I just had to say, thanks for finding me...amazing woman you are! Feel very inside - out today in a nice way. Going to the workshop today to try and be constructive! Hope you are ok? Wow, what a strange fruit life is! Take care, A x"
.. so sad, I feel bad.. I dont know how I feel other than, I should have left it alone.. but he said he had googled me and found me and bearly called me a few months ago (as I nearly went looking for him at Christmas), so guess we would have met up anyway. Kalni, I think you are right, it did seem too much, like I am the 'answer', but I also dont doubt that as he said, I am the love of his life.
So many revelations that day we talked though.. how he only got engaged to a girl because he was lonely and heartbroken over me and she loved him and filled a hole... I said, but I shouted and cried for 3 hours when yuo came to tell me! He said I know, I rememebr, but you didnt tell me you wanted me back !! Crazy. And we were talking about this 15 years later.. so many answers, so MANY wrong assumptions on both sides (like he had NEVER thought of being unfaithful to me, whereas I had thought he had been). Just intersting, that this stuff can take years to unravel, but the truth will out.. it always does.
.. anyway, thats a wierd one, I feel sad about it. I thikn we missed the boat.
Hey Naej.. no its not that, I'm a sensitive, intuitive Piscean, people tell me all kinds of things, I get to see behind the mask (an astrologer once described me as "a detective") -whether I want to or not. Its not that people are overtly depressed, but I see it. My ex was laughing and joking but his answers to some questions were quite half hearted but his freinds didnt notice, whereas I picked up the sadness in his voice. Both these guys are amazing men and a 'catch', but yes, both very emotional, sensitive types I guess.. prone to crying! All my bf's have been criers. Kalni reckons its something I do to them, hahaha !
Hey Lisa.. yes, it is exciting, but someones going to get hurt hey. There are two many people to go around in this sitch ! I'm defo happy to keep waiting and giving him space, I think he is inching his way along and finally getting somewhere. SO...
EXCITING NEWS FLASH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
His oldest BMF (who I saw last night)..wife, J, just called me. She has been with my ex all day and her H, BMF. She took the chance to talk to him and then left and called me straight away (bless her!). This is the convo...
J - So.. hows it going then? ex - ohh.. (grunts alot) you dont want to know J - Well, hows it going with Al? How do you feel about her? Do you love her, or dont you love her? ex - I love her (no hesitation in his answer) J - Well, if you love her, dont you thikn you should sort it out then? ex - I know, I know J - Al realises things werent right before, but she's changed and she wouldnt be that person anymore, dont you think she deserves a second chance? ex - I dont know.. I dont know (confused) J - But.. if you love her and you want to have a child with her (Christ, not putting too much pressure on him there J !!!!!!!), then dont you thkn you should sort it out sooner rather than later?? Time isnt on your side and theres no point hanging around ex - I know, no, you're right, you're right.. J - Well whats stopping you? Hows it going with Helen? ex - urrghhh...(pulls face) J - Well are you two still an item? ex - No, not really J - well then, you should sort it out with Al then ex - you're right, I know you're right
SO....
HE LOVES ME !!! Thats a new one. I got the full IDLYA when he left.
Also.. him and Helen arent really an item !! This is BMF W and ex has known her 15 years and used to talk to her alot, so he would be honest with her. She is so kind pinning him down like that and then phoning me! I'm not expecing him to do anything about this though, he is still obviously undecided.
I think there was a bit more to the above, but she summed it up as, she really feels he wants to get back with me and that Helen is not the issue at all. She was very excited, bless her.
Wow, ALL our friends and family, his and mine have been SO supportive all along, no let up.. 17 months later they are still plugging away trying to get us back together. Everyone was so shocked when we split up (as I was). I feel very blessed.
So after hearing this, I texted him to thank him for last night and made some funny remark.. and he texted straight back! Funny too but said, hope you are ok... so I replied with another wittiscism and said, have a good night with BMF.
Apologies for long post, my sitch is turning into a bit of a chick-lit sitch, lol !!! Anyway.. ex had said he would call me later in the week.. Venus goes direct in Pisces on Friday.. should be 'my' time.
