Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
Nice to have you pop round again !! Don't know what is happening today.... I'm starting to feel my spirits fall...I'm melancholic and feel so sad that H wasn't here for yet another important time of the year...
I spent the day with my family, my parents, my sister, her husband and kids and my brother with his girlfriend...I was with the kids and didn't feel too alone, until I drove back home, made the kids spaghetti for dinner and sat at the table...with what is left of our family. Tomorrow, H has the kids and spends it with his parents, girlfriend, brother, parent's friends and parent's friends kids....once again, I am no longer a part of that. Not because of his parents...because they have invited me to come and spend the night on Tuesday with the kids, and we'll celebrate Easter all over again...but because H replaced me. Well, maybe becuase he has a new love in his life, so me, the old love is no longer part of the picture....
I found out today that for Christmas H gave ow's parents a big poster frame of all their grandchildren, INCLUDING H and my kids on there....
Oh well, life goes on, doesn't it....
Sorry, guys...just a tough day.
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
Cinders, Holidays always tend to bring us down just a bit...remembering what we once had and what we have today. I wouldn't trade where I am today with any of the mlcers. Why? Because I know that we all have faced the fire of pain and have come out the other side. We know what it is to feel the pain and learn the lessons. They haven't yet begun to learn anything about life the way we have.
So, Cinders, tomorrow will be a better day. As for the photo, chalk it up to sucking up to the ow's parents. I wouldn't let that get me down one bit. You've got the best part of him... right there in front of you...your children.
I'm sorry you are down a bit, but I don't think you'll be down for very long. Enjoy the rest of the holiday w/your family and friends. Hugs!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
Hi Snodderly, thank you so much for your encouragement... today has been better, although initially it saddened me terribly to see the kids leave with H and hear ow's voice saying hello to them very cheerfully outside on the road...
Anyway, I picked up myself after that, called a friend and went with her and her two kids to the park...it was lovely and sunny. We saw some friends there whom I met up with later in the evening. (H's business partners...) Anyway, I'm glad they still like coming round to my house, we ordered spare ribs from the restaurant next door and had a blast !! Drank wine, laughed, let the kids (their kids of course) play and we talked lots. It was great fun !!
Weird thing is, I wonder how H will react to it, when he hears they were here, as one of them has been my friend too for a long time, so he's ok as he came by with his wife, but the other guy is a new business partner and he didn't bring his wife...and to be honest I don't know him very well either, but he seems to like me a lot. Weird.
Anyway, the girls are getting ready for bed at their grandparents, where H left them overnight (he's driving back home now to his and ow's place). Tomorrow I will go to my inlaws and spend the afternoon there and the night ! Then Wednesday I will drive back home !
Glad the day is over and that I survived it reasonably well !
Hope you all had happy Easters !!! xxxxx
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
Cinder, You cannot worry about what your h will think about his business partners coming by for a visit. They came to see you and enjoy your company...there's nothing wrong w/that.
I'm glad to see that the children had a nice Easter. At least the holiday is now over and we can move forward to spring and summer!
Enjoy the rest of your week.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
Don't know what is happening today.... I'm starting to feel my spirits fall...I'm melancholic and feel so sad that H wasn't here for yet another important time of the year...
