WAW/Affair Confirmed - Advice? #2

[DCBHM]

W text-messaged me on Sunday around lunch asking if S7/S8 were having a good Easter. I replied back and asked about D1, and she said she was doing fine and enjoyed her Easter basket.

I feel almost like they are trying to appeal to me through my boys, which is how we ended up dating to begin with. First the Easter baskets, all the niceties, inviting me over saying I'm welcome "any time."

Says the people who filed against me alleging falsehoods hoping for a quick kill. Now all of a sudden they want me to feel pity because after all, how can I pick on little old them.

The sad thing is, I still have feelings for W which make it emotionally difficult to go after her like I am. Whenever I see her, I don't feel anything, but for a day or two afterward I feel confused, nostalgic, etc. and have to remind myself that she is selfish and only cares about herself and would leave me without anything if she could with her mental imbalance.

Part of me is tempted to threaten exposure on a larger scale (extended family/coworkers) if she doesn't come clean and cut the lies, but that is a card that can't be un-played.

Plus that stoops me to the level she has gone to with trashing me to everyone, people who don't matter, etc.

So anyway...

This morning I saw D1. She and I played on the floor of the nursery for a bit, and eventually she started going "uh" and reaching up for me. I picked her up and she laid her head on my shoulder. She always seems content around me.

I know on Saturday when I had her, I was napping next to her and she all of a sudden jerked her head up as if startled, but then she looked at me and laid her head on my shoulder and went right back to sleep.

Spoke to one of the daycare workers this morning, asked if she could keep me updated on D1. Will cut back text-messaging to W since all I ever get is "She's fine" as a response. Tired of feeding her ego by allowing her to act as the gatekeeper.

W has been trashing me to the daycare workers, but they are starting to lighten up around me because they have seen me there religiously for about 4 months now going to see D1. I'm guessing they know something is a bit off about W's story.

I did taxes last night (M filing Jointly) and I pro-rated the refund split based on a prior agreement with W. I guarantee she'll be upset when she sees the breakdown because she was probably counting on more money. Since she made 33% of the income, she only gets 33% of the refund.

After everything though, I feel kind of sad. As much as I hate to admit it my feelings for W are a liability. The emotion makes it difficult for me not to want to confront her on the A until getting the truth out of her. Or reasoning with her. All of which I know is pointless.