WAW - Very confused and devastated - pt 7

[confusedinpa]

Confused,

I can feel the love you have for your wife and sons. My heart breaks for you having to go through this. I can certainly empathize. It hurts to finally understand what it is you need to do to fix the things that have been going wrong in your relationship and not be given the opportunity. You feel gyped. I wish you strength in getting through this tough week you speak of.

Thanks for checking in on my thread. It is a tough week as it's a real gut shot.

I think you captured it spot on. I feel gyped that I'm not given the opportunity. I know that's how my wife also feels as she feels' gyped for being hurt over the years. She had thought that marriage would be happy and loving. Instead she feels she has gotten years of pain/hurt. There were happy moments, but she felt that the love was not there.

I've told her that I had tried to make her feel loved the way I had known how. I see that didn't meet what she expected. I understand that now.

I thought I would be a lot worse today, particularly as I saw the Uhaul truck parked down the street. Perhaps I'm numb. Or I know that I've done everything that I can do to give us a chance now. This is now her decision.

I pray that we have the strength and wisdom to save our marriage