Michelle- when I first scanned your post and you'd written R I automatically thought of your 'R' as opposed to an R. How intertwined you've both become!!
Handsome- did you see Tiger's shot on the 18th last night that hit the tree? Unbelieveable round he had apart from the last 2 holes. Next year I'm coming to watch the Masters with you!
Mishka- thankyou for the vote! I like the idea of an island boy, although I'm not entirely sure what that is. I'll imagine something and not commit it to words in case I embarrass myself! So, working through from easiest to hardest with answers...
D- I think takes a minimum of 16 weeks in the UK, dpeending on how quickly the forms go back and forth. I'm definitely sending the first papers tomorrow so let's see how long it takes for me and STBXH.
Quantum Yoga- is a form of 'dynamic' yoga that is supposed to train you to recognise internal imbalances and modify practise to be able to address those as you work. I used to do yoga until H left and then I stopped doing it, mainly because I didn't think I'd be able to successfully compartmentalise my feelings away if I was spending time every day meditating. It was SUCH hard work on the retreat this weekend, but I feel like I've exercised parts of me that I'd forgotten I had. It was funny, actually, because the instructor suggested I focus my work on dealing with change in my life and as I was meditating at the end of the first session there was this huge release as everything 'reconnected' itself within me (I can't explain this very well) and I felt as though everything from the last couple of years just left me. It was GREAT! So, I'm tired today but I feel light in myself and balanced. It's lovely.
CEO- in relation to the ways he looks after me, yes, I did agree with his assessment- he looks after me as far as he can within the confines of our R, and I suspect, reading between the lines, that he does more for me on that front than he tells me about. I'd just rather he wasn't looking after me as my boss You're right that he is very self-assured, or comes across that way. I can't imagine that I make him feel inadequate though, as I'm only me, but I guess that I might do if he cared about my opinion, which is the million dollar question isn't it?!
Finally (this is a really tricky one for me, Mish!), how do I feel about him? I don't know!! I feel frustrated with him- as Michelle says, the situation is incredibly complicated and it's so infuriating. He's a chaser and needs to do the asking but he won't. On the other hand he doesn't like other men speaking to me and is comfortable discussing the fact that people think we're married. I feel like he is the most annoying man I ever met, but he's also the most manly man I ever met (apart from you, of course, Jeff!). He makes me want to be better and he brings out parts of my personality that I'd forgotten I had. When he puts his arm round me, I feel safe. When he looks at me, I get butterflies. I love that he tries to look after me, and that when he's there I laugh all the time (apart from when we're fighting, but even then we laugh at least a little). I love that he thinks he needs a bigger house because he has such big dreams and needs space to dream them. I don't know what that feeling is. Limerance perhaps? Attraction, definitely. I don't like it much, whatever it is. Life would be easier if he wasn't my boss, that's for sure. It has all the makings of a Richard Curtis film
So the D papers are going to H tomorrow. CEO and I are going for a business lunch to a posh French restaurant tomorrow, which should be fun.
