peacetoday I do not think he will ever want to come back by the way he is acting and truthfully I wouldnt want him back like he is. So why do I need to guard myself around him if he is not coming home? And peace, he says he left because of stress and he became unhappy. We were having a hard time with money and unhappy with our home, couldnt make any decisions, we were stuck, and on top that he lost his job. He was unhappy with all this, and he tried to make himself happy here but couldnt, he said he couldnt lead me on anymore. It really wasnt me, I dont think by what he said, that made him unhappy, but he doesnt realize that. He left, thinking he could be happy away from us, and thus wanted to erase all his past. I didnt go away and I pressured him and that made him even more miserable. (I hadnt found this site yet). He started drinking and going out, he tried to find someone that would make him happy and he thinks he finally has. He has lived with her for awhile and maybe he is not "happy enough" so now he is going to marry her. Maybe he thinks this will make him happy? I dont know. He says he cant help how he feels, so maybe he really loves her and is scared of losing her. OR maybe he is still unhappy and thinks if he marrys her and thus is married again, he will be happy.
Either way he is trying to create a new life because of his unhappiness. BUT I cannot wait forever on him to change or not change his mind. So this is why I think, he aint coming home, so why do I need to be quiet and let him tell me how happy he is. I am angry with him and I want to get over this anger so bad.

Who here is NOT willing to see anyone while leaving the door open?
Does everyone here just keep their mouth shut no matter what they say? Well the divorced ones anyway.
Also who in MLC is already divorced besides me?

Thanks,
Renee


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M:42
H:40
S:18
M:20yrs/together 21yrs
Bomb:9/08 ILYBNILWY
Sep:9/18/08 "ow" :25
Filed:11/18/08
D:12/8/08
M:Different 26 yr. old 7/09.
Newborn 4/10