The adventure continues--part 2

[AFWAW]

PD,
It is really difficult as you said with the mixed signals. Damn frustrating is what it is. She called a while ago. She had dinner downtown. Get this, she told me it was with a "friend" from another town that owed her money. He is an "older" guy that used to work in her building. Ok, I could look at this three different ways. 1st the optimistic way--she is telling the truth and it means nothing, hence the reason she called to make sure I knew about. 2nd the pessimistic way--she had a fling with this "older" guy(she never did say how old--hell, 40 is older than her), he borrowed money and was going to pay her back and try to restart stuff and she called just in case someone saw her and didn't want me to think there was anything going on. 3rd--Hell, I shouldn't even waste time thinking about it as I haven't done anything wrong and what she's doing is sucking the lifeforce right out of me. We did talk for about 20 minutes though so I wanna believe that she is still leaning towards coming home. I HAVE TO PLAN LIKE WE ARE STILL GETTING A DIVORCE THOUGH! If I don't tell myself this, I am setting myself up for failure I believe at this point. MAKE UP YOUR FREAKING MIND ALREADY!!!!!!!!!!! Thoughts?????