hope lost...he said the D word!

[bluerain]

Im so sorry lost, I really hope that this is just a bad day.

I think that you hit the nail on the head when you mentioned him not speaking up sooner. I think thats how a lot of us have gotten here, I know its how I got here at least.

Dont do anything unless you want to, I think thats the most important thing I can tell you. Dont sign anything until you are ready, I know I had to feel like I had done everything humanley possible before I wanted to sign them. And even then, Im still not D, so even that isnt the end of the world. I dont think that it is stupid AT ALL for you to stay hopeful, even in the face of separation. You are a good person, you dont just give up on the people that you love. Find something that makes you smile and do that, dont let his bad behavior ruin you.

During this phase of my sitch, I found strength in reading all the relationship books, learning about communication, affairs, all kinds of things. It helped to learn about how I got here, and what I could do about it. I prayed, exercised, wrote letters, not ones that I would give to anyone, I took most of them to the beach and burned them, and I wrote in a journal.

I know things are so hard right now, dont forget to sleep, eat and drink water.