Hi guys, fb2 I will reply to you probably tomorrow, from work...
H stayed here last night. We met with the guy of the couple that split up last week. Interesting convo. For both me and H. Anyway, we had a "quiet eveining", watched a movie and slept as far away from each other as possible.
Today, we had a 30 minute convo. Basically I said a few things and he was stuck to "me wanting him to quit one job". When I said that isnt going to do us any good if we dont connect and that he would end up resenting me he agreed. He said he has nothing to add, he will not accept blame for me feeling angry or sad and when I asked he said all he wants from me is to be calm and not to "yell" at him. When I asked when do I yell he said I did once regarding something ridiculous and when I said I wasnt yelling at him, I was just excited about what we wre talking about, he didnt accept that. He is not happy the way things are but he has no suggestions. The only thing he could think of was him moving back home. When I said if we go on like this I will very soon get bitter he said that is my problem.
I talked again abo ut Fridays, making love, feeling wanted, compliments, priorities etc etc. He said that the fact we dont see each other or make love arent proofs that he doesnt love me. He said I am not clear about what I want. When I said there is no other way to tell him, that I have used details, he agreed.
One thing he said and made me think, was, that he doesnt feel passionate about anything. He never has an dthinks he never will. It's just his character. So, I got a bit nervous because that doesnt sound very attractive to me. He said, no matter what I believe he is not passionate about work either.
We talked more. He said all this anger from me he cant accept. It's my problem. That I think a lot about the past. I explained that now I get angry about the present. Because I want to for example, laugh,go to theater plays, concerts, travel, enjoy life and we are not doing that. He said these things he doesnt like...
I may post some tomorrow because right now, I am distracted. K
Ohh, and he said, he never thought there was a possibility of me falling in love and moving away for example. I almost laughed, but I didnt...
