thank you making it things have turned on there head, she hinted that maybe we could live seperate and see how it goes, she didnt atually say it but i got that feeling,i didnt want to pressure her into to much. but she did say she dosent think she could live back here, she feels it would do more bad than good, so my feeling is she is thinking of a new place and maybe a new start, itold her i dont want to pressure her into any decisions and i wanted her to make her decision for her, not for me, and not for the kids just her,
my emotions are all over the place, cant believe i was so blind, so wrapped up in my own little world and i never give a seconds thought of the damage i was causing, i fear i have took to much from her, dont know if it can be fixed, i sure hope to god it can, im so so sorry for all the pain i have caused, i will follow my heart and just pray to god the outcome is in my favour, but whatever happens i just want her to be happy, my heart bleeds for her, i do know 1 thing though i have to forgive myself for my actions otherwise things will never change for me, i have a counseling session booked. so see how that goes, speak soon guys, im going to see if i can find any threads with my situation,
